It had to happen sooner or later. I'm actually amazed that it took so long, although I think the events of this week had a lot to do with it. Yes folks, I finally had my first training meltdown. I usually have at least one of these per training cycle and it usually happens during a huge block of training. Which has been the case for me over the last couple of weeks. Coupled with what happened to G the other day, and the high crap factor of yesterday's ride and well, everything just seemed to be a bit too much for me. I haven't been feeling very confident as of late. I feel like the decision to do a 70.3 only 8 weeks after a marathon was maybe not the greatest idea. I feel like I haven't had adequate time to prepare the way I would have liked to (lots of open water swimming, long rides followed by long runs). I also feel like I've lost a lot of strength. That seems to be the kicker for me. I felt it yesterday on the climbs and in the wind and I can physically see it in the way my body looks. I'm no longer the super lean athlete I was last year. My body has changed. I'm carrying more weight around my midsection and thighs than I have in the last 2 years. I can only chalk that up to not lifting like I used to. I'm also carrying 4 extra lbs that I somehow managed to put on after Boston and that I haven't been able to shake. I know 4lbs doesn't sound like a lot but when you're already slim, 4lbs makes a difference in everything. It can slow you down. I feel and perform my best when I'm in the low 120's. I'm hovering around 125-126lbs right now. Anyway, all of this came to a head yesterday and after my ride, I sat on the couch and cried.
I touched on some of this with Mike yesterday (another coach & owner of Real Deal racing). He gave me a pretty good pep talk. Ming has also reassured me that things will turn around. I am full of mixed emotions right now. I'm questioning my reasons for racing as well as my desire to do so. I was miserable on the bike yesterday. If it wasn't for my friend David, I think I would have thrown in the towel. Since G can no longer ride, I have also lost my main training partner for my long rides which sucks. To top it off, my friend Heather and I went into the water yesterday and it was positively FRIGID. I'm not sure how much open water swim practice I'm going to get before I get to Luxembourg. Pretty much all the open water in Ontario is colder than normal. My first triathlon of the season is next weekend and I can't even fathom getting into the water and actually swimming.
But...things could be worse....every time I look at G with his arm in a sling, I am reminded of that.
Now that I've gotten that off my chest, let's look at the week that I had. It was a high volume week but some workouts were shortened due to lack of time on my part + due to water conditions. As usual, I'm linking up with the Bestfoot ladies to recap my week of training.
Monday: 2000m swim followed by a 50 minute bike with intervals
Tuesday: 10 km run. Was supposed to be 12-15km but I got stuck at work late and got to run club just before they started.
Thursday: 35 minute hard bike (probably should have done a longer warm up) followed by a 7+km run with 1km repeats. Holy tough.
Friday: 2050m swim, followed by a 60 minute bike.
Saturday: 95.16km ride followed by a 5km run. 100km day baby!
Sunday: A amazing 20km run followed by a 30 minute weight workout and then a 10 minute dip in the lake.
Totals for the week:
Bike: 163.98 km
Run: 42.39 km
Total time: 11h 25 minutes
Thankfully this is a low volume week so I should have some good recovery time built in to my program. I had a really hard workout today so I've asked Ming to give me tomorrow off. Fingers crossed he does.
How was your week of training?